.Late recordings of 11th June 2008.

This was when the clock struck 12 in the midnight and oh yeah, I am sixteen. *YAWNS*

Okay, I take it one stride ahead to tell you that why are there PINKISH eggs on my brithday?

Chinese tradition~!!! It’s the pride and joy. I forgot why but at least, I know it is a tradition. Ooppps~

And the cake? Both the eggs and the cake was done by the beloved Aunty Poh… You will see this wonderful lady’s picture down later on. Read further… =]

Me, my Mum. Do we look alike? LOL.

Aunt, Me (looking up), Dad & Mum.

& ohh ohh, the 4 slices of Secret Recipe’s cake!!! ROTFLMAO.

Aunt, Me, Dad, Mum. I seriously can’t stop fooling around. It’s just MADNESS.

CAMWHORE TIME!!!

Aunt (clueless) & I (poser).

We are HERCULES JUNIORS!!!!

That is what single people do. Love themselves! <3

Alright, kiddin’. Okay, maybe not. But let’s just say, I am a little *LOOPY*

Dad & I. Mum’s hand promoting the cake. Yes, we love the cake, Aunty Poh. Thank you so so so much.

Dad, Me & My Mum. SMILE!!!!

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The DAY!!!

Hell of a day, BORING. Not much. Just the usual. Went for piano lessons, back, got presents (THANK YOU!!!), went for dinner and back to grandparents. It’s so YAWNNNNN this year.

Thanks for all the present. So lovely. & the flowers. Weee ~! From Ms, Tan & Uncle John.

I have told you a million times, Gee. Your writing is NOT CRAP. GAHHHHH !!!

Me & Ah Siang.

p/s: I am wearing Gee’s birthday pressie for me already on my wrist!!!!

Me, Aunty Phang, Rasni, Ruby & Ah Siang. <3

Present opening time!!!!

Okay, me showing off the present Ah Siang gave to me!!!

Khairi at the corner? *smacks head*

Aunty Poh, Sunny, Me, Ms Leong, Gee Gee (Aunt)!!!

Let me introduce you to the famous, AUNTY POH!!!

Another round of applause. LOUDER, please?!!!

Thank you. *smiles sweetly*

Who else other than by best buddy SUNNY!!!!

Me & My Mum. HEARTS. Yay!!!

Thanks for the mocha cake. & trying to fatten me up!!! Sunny, Sunny, Sunny!!!!

p/s: I don’t know but it is delicious and I cannot be bothered bout my weigh right now. HUNGRYY~!!

Mum, I. Cutting cake? Don’t know what I got so caught up in???

Grandmother & I. Love her.

The presents opened up!!!

OFF TO BED. NITE NITE.

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.

Computers are just new things we toy with, but not at all helpful at times.

I promised more pictures, well, here they are. ENJOY!

Took from the car. Lovely sky.

Mum, Me, Aunt.

Me. Freezing. It’s EFFING COLD here. Don’t blame me. 5 layers of clothes is SANDWICH.

Viv for sale at 5.95GBP? GOD, NO!

The wind took away half off my face. No kiddin’.

Well, that’s it. For the moment. Like I said, I really can’t bear to upload all day long. However, I did upload some in Facebook. Check it out or stay tune HERE.

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.

Everyone has questions, but where are the answers?

Well… Like I said before, what happens if there are 2 Vivians in the world?

Here it goes ;

Well… I don’t think it will be that bad after all.

Stay tune for more updates!

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.

Deepest apologies on becoming the procrastinator that I really am.

Yes, I am finally home. Back in my own country.

I have been late on posting. The day I came back was extremely busy. It was on a Monday, 29th April 2008, 12.30pm. I was so jet-lagged on the 12 hours plus flight. Friggin’ tired. God….*groan*

It hurts my brain just to think of it. Goodness…. Well, I took a short nap. Went out, met few people. They were shocked, yeah, grandparents, uncle, friends etc. It was nice to see all of them. My family & a few people. But to put it this way, it did fill the void that has been empty while I was in England. But I felt unhappy being here. I just don’t find my satisfaction here like I did over there. It’s just…. WEIRD.

Okay, instead of posting pictures Blogspot like usual, I am going to post it here. Great change that would be. *snorts*

Well, Blogspot is just too public & I would prefer it here though.

Okay, I am gonna post up a few. I am far too lazy to post all at once. So… that will take some time. Enjoy!

Shots from inside of the airplane ;

Penang International Airport.

Mum caught in the act. Candid.

Minox DCC Leica M3. This is so love at first sight aside the DSLR Nikon Camera. Baby!

For more info click here.

Me, my aunt. Yes, in the airplane. I wonder what is she doing?

Pictures of the outside view ;

A glimpse of London ;

London Heathrow Airport *finally* ;

THE END. Nono. Not the end yet, it’s just a start. There’s more to come!!!

Well, I have recently found out that I have a weird thing. Err… right. I really can’t stay long in front of the computer uploading n blogging like for so long as I used to. I am not kidding. Seriously.

Stay tune for more updates on pictures. You know how LAZY I am BUT yet how hardworking I am to take all those pictures. & TO POST IT UP HERE. Well, I just can’t resist taking pictures of every single thing while I was there.  Totally cliche touristy kinda thing, but, yeah, I DON’T CARE. LMAO. <3

Just totally heart taking pictures of everything, you know?  Well, especially it’s my 1st time there & definitely not my last~ XD

That’s all… FOR NOW.

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.

Simple things make me smile.

Yes, I am happy. Let me get the record straight here.

15 April 2008 at 1.30pm to 3.30pm ; Yes, it is the greatest momento of my life. Uber-happy!!!

Weeeee!!!! I have been officially accepted into St. Francis College, Letchworth UK & guess what? I can skip a year & straight go for me A-levels next year in September 2009! Woohoo.

Celebration time come on!!!!

Errr..sorry people. I am just being ecstatic with happiness. But am in the process of deciding the subject to take for me A-levels. Oh God, I am so happy. I love you world. We are the world, we are the children… Lalala.

“VIVIAN, snap out of it!”  *slaps meself* OUCH. Ahhhh, better. I am just so happy. Well, I have one year here to laze around? Never mind, it’s bonding with me famiglia & amigos. Si?

Have a nice day, people!!!!

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.

“Nothing is left of me if I don’t stand up & walk again.”

Limp as a leaf my confidence is, that’s where my weakness shows.

What am I to know?

Life just revolves around me, I do not revolve around it. Their actions prevented me to cause mine.

It is nothing but losing myself in the world where things get up & move, where everyone comes & leaves.

What is this? This ain’t no movie, I know it. It’s just LIFE. Pure realistic life.

I’ve told myself many a time to just snap out of it. What did I thought? I could blend into the background without voicing out myself sometimes? What happened to the old me?

I am not just a nodding dog. I nod to everything everyone says. I used to have my opinions, my personality. Where is it gone? I can’t contain this anymore. It’s just too painful. I just have to SCREAMMMMM it all out.

It’s pretty factual to tell it out than to keep it in. I have kept way too much inside of me & I am so so so sorry that I have burst it out on bitching it on anyone of you, I am so sorry. Depressed, dispirited, dejected.

&& that is the way of my so-called life. Yeah, I have certainly let the cat out of the basket by bursting it all out. Don’t judge me any more than you judge anybody else. I am different & maybe a little bit strange, but that’s who I am. I change. I have flaws. I try hard to change them. It’s just a matter of the cycle of my life. I accept criticism. I don’t accept judgements. Because anyone’s opinions might not be what I want. I move on life on what I think is right & logistically correct, I don’t get on with things that dissatisfy me. It just confuses me more.

Oh yeah, what am I? I’m just a mesed-up, confused teenager.

I am searching for a voice inside of me,

To look deeper & open up my horizons,

Find my way back into life,

Oh, yes, I am going to thrive,

In this life, I will survive.

I know, I know, this is not easy. Coping up with me. Grumbling, whining, bitching, ranting, rambling, yakking …. Okay, okay, I get it. Well, stick with me & I will take you up & down the bendy roads.

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.

I crave a little here & there. Weee…

<– I want that!!!

White PCD Logo Dolls Hoodie.

I crave for lots of stuffs, & this is one of them. Weeee. But it is so expensive. $49.95.

Goodness. Save some money & that’s mine.

& new camera, handphone && sushi!

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.

Everyone is so biased, why can’t they just shut their mouth?

Why do these people think I have to depend everything on my parents? WHY?!! Do they think I am so spoiled, stupid & pampered that they think I am so HANDICAPPED to do my own thing?

Do they even know what is going in someone’s life when they just say & assumed me the way I am? Do they?

People are so annoying. I can’t believe it.

They keep saying ;

” Wow, it’s so nice you are in UK. How did you get there? Surely, your parents sponsored. Your parents are soooo rich. “

STUPID BLOODY MOTHERFUCKERS. There is no exception. I can’t bear all these people anymore. What’s more… who are THEY? Don’t they think I am capable of myself & what am I doing? Do they think I am such a baby that I have to go whining to my parents for everything?

Making movies ; You need a set-up. You need to plan backstage scenes.

It’s the same. This is life. Don’t judge me on what you see on the outside. It’s not as green as you see.

“The grass is always greener on the other side.”

It’s not true. Don’t judge till you walk a mile in my shoes. I have tread on glass, sand & water.

At least, have you all ever wonder how I felt? When you talked to me, did you ever think it would offend me?

Don’t you think I have feelings? I am a human, too? Excuse me, let me jab reality into all of you. Think before you talk & never judge a book by its cover.

What you see on the outside is never the same in the inside. Nothing is ever the same. The shell of the egg looks perfect on the outside but if you crack it, it might not be. It is not as perfect as you think.

Actors & actresses act don’t they? Normal people in normal life act too. We are all actors on this stage we called life. It’s life.

FACE IT. I am getting so pissed with everything, nothing ever satisfies with me.

Well, glad to let that all out.

You know you love me,

Viv xxx.